It was long ago. But not in another galaxy, though really? When I think about it, when I feel it? It does feel like another world.
Hey hello! Here I am, back in the world. The blogging world. I’ve started and stopped so many times in the past 5 years… I need to do this, though. I need to write. I need to write in a place that can be seen. Yeah I don’t know what that says about me. And really, at 55 and feeling like a 30-year-old? I don’t give a flying fuck what that says about me., about the “kind of person” I am. I just want – I just need – to be able to be out here.
Molly’s Daily Kiss’ post about fucking brought out it out in me, the willingness to be out here again. Of course I can’t be out in the usual places, not in my other spaces, in the places I had built and called my own. My kinky homes. So instead, I am back where it all began. Back with W (how I wish that were so. Still. After all these years.) But no, I he is long gone and I am using the space I created for us. I have not one doubt that he would object. In fact, if he’s watching from somewhere, I know he’s raising his fist in celebration. Congratulating me and asking me why it took me so long.
I thought about deleting all the content and starting over, and I may still do that. I believe it deserves a face lift, at least. Maybe. Maybe I will just write here and fuck how it looks, or what’s behind it. As for all of the stories of our life together, of my life…should I erase them in the service of moving forward? …
I don’t think so. We’ll see.
/end of scary exploration of putting myself out here in the world again
Is there more to come?
PS This is mostly just a test, to see what happens when I post something here…
4 thoughts on “Long ago, in a galaxy far, far away…”
What happens when you post something here? I cam and read it… and maybe the fact that W would be celebrating tells you something but mostly do what feels right and good for you.
Molly love! So nice to see you here. I’m not really sure who still follows this space, but I think I may use it to myself on sex and kink topics again, with maybe a tiny (very narrowly-focused) slice of life occasionally. We’ll see how it goes.
Love back to you…
Oh, good golly, it’s so good to see you back. You were my guide when I tiptoed into kink, and since I found you I’ve completely remade my life into one that’s true and full and good. Please take all my best wishes and gratitude and please please don’t delete all your old words (unless you decide you really have to)… thank you forever Jade.
Thank YOU for leaving such a lovely reply. Readers like you are why I am here.